PonderEthereal

… “It was 8:10 this morning. You were wearing black pants and a hooded shirt. I was two people behind you. You walked out then walked back in and I passed you. You said hi i did as well. I could not help but notice you beautiful smile. I could not keep you out of my mind all day. If you are not seeing anyone I would like to get to know you.”

I’ve never understood those ads. Really? Do people see someone and then rush home to comb the ‘I saw You’ ads? Or rush home to post one in the hopes that the other person rushes home to check? I’ve never in my life seen a hot guy or girl, said hi and then considered posting a note to him in the local paper. It amazes me that anyone would ever connect that way. Or maybe they don’t?

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By Portia Nelson

Chapter 1
I walked down the street.
There was a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fell in.
I was lost.
I was helpless.
It took me a long time to get out.

Chapter 2
I walked down the same street.
There was a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretended I didn’t see it.
I fell in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
It wasn’t my fault.
Still took me a long time to get out.

Chapter 3
I walked down the same street.
There was a hole in the sidewalk.
I saw it was there.
I fell in again! It was a habit.
My eyes were wide open,
and I knew where I was.
It was my fault,
and I got out immediately.

Chapter 4
I walked down the same street.
There was a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walked around it.

Chapter 5
I walked down a different street.

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Crossposted to Trusera

This past week, I experienced a personal crisis. It required that I go to the hospital and interact with medical staff. It required that I talk to police officers, detectives, attorneys and a judge. My son had to talk to CPS. I had to fill out lots of forms, and have lots of information at the ready. I subsequently have had to work with several government agencies and this will continue over the coming weeks. There were several things that I found unique about those situations and Asperger’s Syndrome.

Eye Contact : I don’t make eye contact very much with people I don’t know and I rock when I’m in a difficult situation. Add shock and trauma to the list and those symptoms go through the roof. Police are trained to watch eye contact for truthfulness and doctors are trained to watch eye contact for neurological symptoms. I…

I picked Ethan up today from school by myself for the first time since last week. My ‘body guards’, as a friend called them, waited anxiously at home for me. I wanted him to feel like today was getting back to normal. No trips to offices of official people who speak legaleze, no paperwork or talk of big things that make no sense. Just me picking him up after school to come home and do homework, eat dinner and laze around for the evening.

I brought him home. And then I cleaned. I scrubbed, I swept, I vacuumed. With one arm. Until I got heart palpitations and had to stop. And remember that I’m still traumatized. And that no matter how hard I scrub, I can’t make it normal again.

I’ve been whipped up into a storm of official paperwork, medical evaluations, legal terms and definitions, security precautions, case numbers, dates and long lists of things to do, take care of, wrap up and begin. Most of all, I’m in pain, recovering from trauma and still a wee bit in shock.

If it had not been for friends being here around the clock to make sure I remember to breathe, friends to go with me to remember the instructions babbled by one official or another, friends and family who called just to tell me they support me and love me, I would not be able to function at all right now.

Thank you all so very much, truly from the bottom of my heart. I promise, when I have use of both hands and all of my wits again, I’ll surface again with something to say. I’m bigger, badder, smarter and…

Early September 17th, my husband became physically abusive to me. When I got out of the hospital, I filed a restraining order. That means that he’s not to talk to or come near me or my son. He is specifically not allowed to talk to my friends or family regarding my whereabouts. Please handle any communication with him regarding me and my son accordingly.

I’m physically damaged and mentally and emotionally damaged. My son is going through his own pain and fear. But over all, I am still here and kicking and the man-child is ok and I will fight for him to be ok. I have friends around me helping to make us feel safe and helping me through this process so I think, overall, everything will turn out ok. That is my weak attempt at making this as positive as possible. It really sucks.

Mythic Entertainment’s Warhammer Online goes live for head start folks tomorrow! Yay for being able to actually KEEP the character I play after tomorrow! :)

So far, I’ve really enjoyed the game. I was telling Ryan the other day that there is very little grinding for experience. There are always new quests to do and should I get sick of killing regular ole’ mobs, there is RvR or there are public quests always going on.

I’m a solo player and so far, everything has been really balanced in the way of experience gained and being required to kill stuff I can handle. I made my first gold within a few hours of play, which for me, is good. I did have some help from Penns Warhammer Leveling Guide and Ashling’s Leveling Guides which were the first guides out, really.

crossposted to Trusera.

I am a Usui Reiki Master Teacher and the originator of Blue Fire Reiki. I’ve been teaching Reiki for 2 years. When I teach, I avoid the metaphysical Frou-frou and try to explain things in a really realistic way so that people REALLY understand (and believe) what I’m talking about. So… I’ll talk about reiki.. but bear with me through the ‘grass roots’ explanations. :)

Reiki is a complimentary alternative healing modality in which energy is channeled through the client to cause healing. When we talk about energy, what we are really talking about is the common ‘fabric’ upon which everything else in the known universe rests. The stuff that isn’t yet measurable by physical means (I have faith in science though - it catches up with metaphysics every now and then!). Different types of energy fall into different places along the spectrum of ‘universal energy’.

Energy is less dense…

Climbing Vine : I have a vine that covers a wall down one side of my house. It has waxy oval leaves that alternate down each stem. Older parts of the plant have woody stems. Newer branches in thick parts actually stick out away from the plant and the parts up high can actually create some very nice shade. It has a milky white sticky sap and it grows odd purple and green pods that are filled with the same gluey sap.

Small Purple Flowers : This one looks like it’s climbing but it’s not… it’s just growing along the fence. I don’t know where it came from or how.

I had a ginormous bromiliad in the front yard that had no less than 20 plants all bunched together into one.

I HAD two of them but I gave one away. Today, I performed surgery on this remaining one and separated out 8 separate plants with at least 1 pup each. I lined 4 of them up along the wall that the big one used to be on. The other 4 I used in the back yard.

The owner of the house has this unnatural attachment to these vines all over the back fence. So much so that they died like 10 years ago and when they up and decided to do THAT… well, he just tied them up to the fence and installed posts to HOLD THEM UP. Some living vines have since managed to crawl down the top of it all but it was literally this hanging wall…