How can I take back my power without giving other people theirs back? I can’t unilaterally keep the beliefs that I have a right to keep all of my power and that other people do not have that right. Isn’t their right to keep their power as important as mine? How can […]

Travel has never really been a part of ‘things I enjoy’. The whole idea of being away from home, potentially staying in hotels or not knowing where I am or what’s around… it all scares me. In fact, I’ve always said I would want to see Tibet and Greece - but I always […]

Last night was a really tough night of lots of soul searching and True Path Healing. Putting the pieces together of past trauma is never easy… especially when it’s yourself trying to do it. But I did come to a few really important conclusions - one of which was about drug use. […]

There is a flavor to the air when it’s late like this. It’s silent out and every responsible upstanding person is in bed early enough to be useful tomorrow at work and school. And I’m going out to get a burger because I’m craving beef. Trance droning on and on. Barely […]

Sometimes, when I look around at the world and what’s happening in it and when I tune into the turmoil that I know it has to result in, I want to run away and live out in the mountains somewhere where I don’t think it can reach me.
When I was young, we lived […]

In my latest foray into Gertrude-land, it occurred to me that she is not the only person around me with a very skewed sense of reality. Psychohosebeast was known to send me tripping down the rabbit hole a time or two. My mother is one of those too. Ryan does it every […]

I seem to be running fear through the iron pentacle an awful lot lately. Recycling it into something I can like… use. Like a nice feeling of sexprideselfpowerpassion… or a big fluffy soft pink sweater. Take your pick.
It’s like if it’s not in one place it’s in another. Fear […]

I wonder sometime how much of me is just reflections from the outside. It’s like looking out and seeing reflections of me looking out. I am not sure I know how to be me without those. Sometimes I feel so blind when I look at myself. It’s like seeing myself as […]

Sometimes things are hard to say. And sometimes they come out all wrong. So I just stop saying them.
I like coding…. I like to lose myself in code sometimes. Write a program for something I will never use. I write something and the screen does something. It’s like […]

I went to my first T’ai Chi class this morning. A couple of weeks ago, I found great, cheap classes at the community center and thought ‘There is no time like the present’ and so… today was the present. I’m learning T’ai Chi Ch’uan and we are learning a form with a really […]