This is the Pagan new
Wednesday, October 31, 2001 21:30This is the Pagan new year. I dont consider myself Pagan anymore but I do consider tonight a death of the old year. I look back over my year and I see a struggle. I have this tarot card called Courage (I use the Osho Zen deck) It is a daisy growing out of a crack in some rocks. Thats what I see when I look back at my year. I feel small and insignificant when I look at the way Ive dealt with things.. weak even. But I came out ok and Im glad of where I am. I am so blessed. I am SO immensely blessed. I have been given so many gifts because of who I am and the way I am. I am so grateful to Spirit for the gifts Ive been given.. every day. I dont have alot but I have moments of pure happiness that cant be bought. I find happiness in so many things around me that are there to give me happiness. Life is living day to day and we live and get up and do it again :)
I did a tarot reading for myself and I see the things I already knew.. that life is a struggle for perfection of certain things.. Im far from perfect or wise or responsible like I should be but I am happy … :) Truely happy.
Accomplishments of the year : lots of issues resolved :) resolution of a not so great relationship… made up with lots of people… figured out who I am… restarted a wonderful relationship… learned to be a mom better… learned to let go…
Goals for the new year : ground myself in the reality of now. Look people in the eyes and stop thinking and listen. Experience the moments instead of breezing through them. Cherish the happiness more often. Dont get wrapped up in the small irritations of life.. or the big hurdles… understand that life happens and relish true happiness.
