PonderEthereal

I guess this was one of those weekends where I spent time thinking about me and who I am and who I want to be.. what’s ok with me and what isnt.

I’ve decided that the low carb thing taught me a valuable lesson about what I need to be eating for my energy levels. BUT.. I also know that the way I’ve been eating with the low carb thing isnt the healthiest. It’s severely lacking veggis and fruits! :) So I’m not going to do low carb anymore BUT.. I am going to eat protien instead of carbs when I’m low on energy.. and lots of the low carb stuff really works for me.. like sugar free drinks and snacks, protein shakes in the morning etc.

I frown too much. Yes. My brow is in an almost permanent wrinkle. I need to smooth out my frown and be more peaceful looking.. else I be plauged by this damned forehead wrinkle the rest of my life.

New socks are the best. I wear Haynes mens crew socks. Ryan and I wear the same socks :) They were getting kinda worn out so I went an bought a few new packs of socks and gosh they feel good. All soft and comforting. They actually conform to my feet instead of bunching up around the toes where they lost the elasticity! :)

Exercise. It just has to be done. Somehow, some way. But I know Ethan is coming back at the end of this month.. so while I have energy now, I wont then so I dont want to get in over my head with a gym contract I wont use while he’s here. So I’m holding off on that.. but I have it in the back of my mind.

I’m not sure exactly WHY I want another baby. Well.. not that I’m not sure I do.. I’m sure. I just saw some things this weekend that made me wonder what my true motivation is. I want to figure that out.

I need some bisexual friends. My straight girlfriends never quite get this entire part of me. I actually had a girlfriend say to me (in reference to someone else who was bi) “I cant help it if he’s confused or cant figure out if he’s straight or gay, I dont want any part of it.” I’m not confused in the slightest, I like boobies as much as I like a big man. I’m very clear on that. And well.. darnit. I want to be me with my friends.

I feel VERY good about this whole savings thing. I have gained 15 cents in interest so far! :) When I transfer money into savings, it feels like I’m spending money on something worth spending money on. And knowing I have money in savings waiting to cover these expenses that are coming up is a very good feeling, indeed.