Travel
Saturday, July 26, 2008 9:15Travel has never really been a part of ‘things I enjoy’. The whole idea of being away from home, potentially staying in hotels or not knowing where I am or what’s around… it all scares me. In fact, I’ve always said I would want to see Tibet and Greece - but I always ‘knew’ I never would because the idea of travel is so daunting.
Travel has always been a struggle for me. I have such odd issues with spacial balance that if I can’t come back to a space where everything is where I expect it to be, I grow very restless and moody very quickly. Being clean is a weird one too. I don’t like showering in showers that I didn’t clean. My shower at home can get grubby between cleanings - but at least I know where that grub has been! :) Every time I travel, it’s almost as if there is a constant expectation that at any moment, I will take my inner child home where she can be comfortable and the longer the trip draws out, the more impatient she gets. I think that’s usually called homesickness.
But not so much anymore, I guess. I’m feeling the urge to travel more, lately. Like maybe in the past 6 months or so.
I set an appointment to get a passport. I don’t know that foreign travel is on the agenda for quite some time - but I like the idea of having the freedom to do so when the time comes. I bought a GPS. I am taking day trips more often. I have fun just driving somewhere, enjoying it and then coming home. There is so much just within a few hours of here! And very quietly, in the back of my mind, I’ve been planning a trip back east. I want to see a bunch of friends and family that I haven’t seen in years. They are scattered about the South East. I don’t know yet if it will be a road trip or if I’ll fly. With gas prices, it might just be easier and cheaper to fly most of the way and then get a car and drive to the places I want to go. Either way though, I’m really interested in having the experience.
I think this is an evolution of me. In lots of ways, I do get stuck as being a kid. I do have odd sensory imbalances that do put me behind the curve developmentally, even still. It’s an interesting ’sensation’ to realize that I’m growing up in one aspect or another. I think most people are usually too young to appreciate that sensation when it happens. And not just ‘growing’ … we all do that all the time.. but achieving basic milestones that most people never even consider because they are natural and normal.
